Today is a prime example of being able to look back into my past, vividly.
I was running late and forgot to take my anxiety/depression medication. Now keep in mind that missing one dose doesn’t leave that much of an effect, but it does leave you feeling, as I like to call it, wavy. I’m a giant wave of emotions.
Every emotion comes rushing towards me in one overpowering swell.
My heart is pounding, my hands are shaking, my body is sweating, and my mind is racing.
Misguided thoughts enter into my life and leave me with knots in my stomach. Consciously, I know this is all because I forgot to take my medication, but unconsciously, these thoughts keep piling up. These thoughts leave me drowning and these feelings suffocate me from the inside out.
Was this really how I lived for 18 years? Did I think this was life at it’s fullest? Of course I did, it was all I knew.
When I hear people bashing the powers of medication it really gets under my skin. Why would we not use what science has provided us with? Would we turn down a cure for cancer just because it didn’t come from nature? We wouldn’t turn down a cure for a terminal illness, so why should we turn down a cure for a mental illness?